30/01/09

Seeking and spiritual ego

Truth cannot be ever reached, because what you are it is Truth. You cannot reach Being, you can only realize that what you are seeking it is already present 100%, but it is ignored in the searching for something that is imagined to be separated from you, a something to obtain.
The very seeking for Truth it is what prevents to the spiritual seeker to realize who is. To understand this, even only intellectually, throws the ego in a situation of deep frustration.
The psychological mind works with goals. In order words, "I" make something in order to arrive to something else. This achieving, if the ego becomes a spiritual ego, consists of obtaining Enlightement, the ultimate spiritual goal.
Whenever happens the listening to the message that the realization of Oneself is the realization that there is nobody -therefore nobody can obtain Enlightement and there is not a method or a practice in order to get it- if this spiritual ego is still present, there will be also frustration.
This frustration, instead of being something negative, it is the spiritual fire that burns the impulse of the ego to exit from the perception of this moment. If one observes with attention, seeking itself arises from the refusal of this moment. Seeking happens because frustration is present and this seeking is what brings to move the attention towards an imaginary moment in the future, in which everything it will be resolved, and Enlightenment will dissolve that frustration. I would say that the very opposite is true. The true spiritual life will bring to feel fully that frustration and it will burn the very desire to move towards a new moment in the future. To be present to this spiritual fire cannot be an action of will from the part of the imaginary individual. The seeker infact will want always to do something, even doing the staying with the frustration, like a method in order to arrive to the awakening. This is obviously impossible and it will not carry to the hoped result.
As the frustration will grow in seeing that every attempt is completly useless, surrendering will happen by itself. A surrender in which nobody surrenders, but that it happens because not there no more the force to seek for a new moment in which Enlightement can happen.
The magic is that when this seeking ends one realize that all happened till that moment, included the attempts of searching the Truth in the illusion that it was a something to obtain, were actions by the Truth in order to realize itself. Nothing is lost in other words, but it is all a divine action that arises as every single event, the the most apparently insignificant one, in order to realize itself.

A spontaneous gratefulness arises for the simple fact that everything is as it is, and that all is only oneself, yourSelf.

The spiritual mind wants to evolve. Truth instead is Being, and for its very nature is PERMANENT, IMMOVABLE, and therefore it does not belong to the world of becoming, of transforming. Truth, this empty and aware Nothing that observes every action, included the one of the spiritual search, is therefore already present. To a mind still projected on the future, on the evolution of the consciousness, all this is absolutely not attractive. No chakra to awaken, no process of transformation to activate, no job on oneself to activate. Awakening is an action of Love. An action of Love towards of itself. In the Love all is received, nothing is refused.

The spiritual mind refuses what is present, it wants to work on the personality, it wants to transform, it wants to change.
Love observes, let fear, anger, hatred or any so called negative emotion to be present, and in not fighting these things, but simply observing them consciously, Love melts everything in itself.

The spiritual mind makes war to the spiritual mind.
Love lets be, embraces every thing, beautiful and ugly, positive and negative, and accepts them unconditionally. Fighting, reactiing is not personal, comes just from a spiritual mind that still wants to search, in the next moment, in next the ten seconds. The spiritual mind fights with what is and therefore it does not know Love. What you are is Love, always. Even if sometimes this Love has fallen asleep about itself and therefore it seeks for itself. This seeking will end for the very fact that has begun.

If you are aware of the fact that you are still searching, just observe that this search is present and don't fight it. Let it be, knowing that seeking will not carry you anywhere because it does not exist anywhere else but this moment. And this moment. And this moment. In the observation of this fact this spiritual fire will grow and carry away with itself all that is false.
This ending of the sense of separation is a true death, but that gives space after its occouring to a living Life totally for the first time.

with Love, Shakti

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