The end of the understanding

When sense of separation disappears, and it does by itself, as the seeking ends.

There is a moment in which we see that this understanding about ourselves, this asking "who am I? what is this universe? where does it come from?" is no more interesting as an intellectual debate. We see that answers just bring to other questions, on and on.
This stopping of conceptualization happens, like when an apple is ripe enough to fall from the tree. It is part of the mistery as well.

When the intellectualization fades away one remains with the emotion connected to this enquiry. At the feeling level what was once the impulse that was bringing the body to make questions, reading books, watching movies and going to groups and conferences is at the end just observed.

The impulse is then seen as a fire, an inner one. A fire that has burnt already all the belief and concept of the mind and is now burning on a deeper level, the one of intuition. Resting in observation of this feeling brings the impulse to dissolve. What remains at the end of this process is peace, silence. Peace was there all along, on the background, but was unrecognized because the attention was on the concepts or on the feelings.

This intuitive understanding comes to an end by itself. When it does completly nothing is left to be understood and nobody to do the undetstanding. Just Being.

Shakti